After all I've been through since January 4, and so close to the end, it seems silly to complain. And of course, I am going to be a survivor. But its at the point where I can't imagine I will ever feel good again. I got so spoiled during the first half of the chemo treatments, getting my strength back within a week or so. I literally cannot get from one room to another without feeling like I'm going to faint. I get so out of breath. If its anything like after the 4th treatment, I will only get enough stamina and strength back before the next treatment to walk into the office on my own and drop into a chair to get hooked up to the poison. In my mind I know (well I hope) I will regain my strength and be back to my old self, but when I feel so drained, its just hard to imagine.
Next visit I'm going to ask how long its going to take after my last treatment before I can actually walk any distance and not expire. LOL I've already started to worry about my commute to work. Granted I could drive to work for a bit, but that isn't a long term solution, as its expensive to park in downtown Chicago plus the drive is just crazy.
Another issue is that the chemo has really affected my left knee, which was replaced a while back but has been giving me problems for a while. I walk with a cane but the chemo has made it worse. I'm hoping that once the chemo is out of my system, my knee will go back to the condition it was in prior to the treatments. I can handle that.
Oh well, I shouldn't be complaining, but sometimes I just have to.