New Year's Eve

Spent the day grocery shopping and then in the studio.  Feeling good.  We are not the partying type, so just a quiet evening in store.  I probably won't make it to midnight and neither will Jack.

So Wednesday is the surgery day for the porta-cath.  Then I guess the chemo could start pretty soon after.  Everything that will be happening seems so surreal today.  Both Jack and I have a positive feeling about the outcome, though.  Positive energy is key to positive results.  I really believe that.  I pray that the side effects are manageable.  I've always been a pretty tough cookie, no allergies, no unusual problems from surgeries, medications, etc.  Except morphine...morphine makes me puke.  Since morphine is not part of the process, I don't think that will be an issue.  LOL

I am going to work on Tuesday.  It may be my last day for a while.  But there is no reason to stay home and it will allow me to make sure everything that I may have been working on is available to my team.  Get my ducks in a row, so to speak.  6 months is a long time to be out...that part is still crazy to me.  I will surely miss my co-workers and actually, my job.

One of the things I've been thinking about is when I do finally go back to work.  I still won't have  my hair.  I wasn't planning on getting a wig, I don't like things on my head.  Even wearing a cloche or ball cap will bother me but I will bear it when I have to leave the house.  I guess the baldness and back to work thing will just be a bridge to cross when I get there.  The silly things we think about...

So onward into 2012!  The year of kicking cancer's ass!